missing hamburg & my husband.

 i spent some time in euroland this week (which was lovely). my man is from hamburg, germany, where we met, dated, prepared for our marriage and lived in our first apartment. we parted ways in that city because i only had so many days off and jonas needed additional time in his hometown. it left me feeling quite displaced. i don't want to get into too many details about my feelings on this matter, but i have been crying since i left & even started crying when some coworkers simply asked about my trip. it was very embarrassing but i do not see how it could have been helped. leaving hamburg and jonas was tough. the thought of our apartment without him is so painful. i know it sounds silly, considering he comes home at the end of the week. however, when i moved back to kentucky from germany, it was without jonas and i left him in that same airport, not knowing when i would see him again. leaving him this time reminded me of the last in that airport. plus, hamburg will always be another home for me. i won't get started on my guilt over jonas living here instead of his hamburg, but oh, it is intense. at least i get jonas back in a few days. too bad he can't take hamburg with him :(