it gets better.

on Monday, i had a ton of anxiety-after many hours of work on Jonas' application "to remove the conditions of his permanent residence", i was finally finished. i had to surrender many of the details of our life because i didn't do a very good job of establishing a "good faith marriage" when i initially mailed the application. there is so much i could say on the subject of homeland security, but i will keep it off my blog. it probably goes without saying that visa situations are the worst. anyway, on monday i was ready to mail it but really needed a few moments before i headed to the post office. i just wanted to read over everything again. i used to do the same thing with examinations in school. i really wanted to leave work on time so i would have time to go through my ritual with the paperwork. of course, i had to do an embalming and i knew i would not leave on time. plus, my blood sugar was so so low and i thought i would die if i didn't eat. i hate when i get so distressed over leaving at a certain time (kind of like a couple weeks ago when i would barely have enough time to go to the St. James Art Fair with Jonas if i left on time and then had to go on a death call. i totally missed going with him, unless 10 minutes and disappointment over a sold out crab cake sandwich counts). somehow, i made it to the post office 3 minutes before it was supposed to close monday- but the doors were locked, what? how dare they leave early! so i went home, i ate something and then i went to the post office with longer hours. also closed. Columbus Day. duh! all of that anxiety for nothing. when things like that happen, i feel so silly for getting worked up. why couldn't i have waited until Tuesday in the first place? truth is, i could have. but i really wanted to drop that huge stack of papers off at the post. i knew it would feel good (it did, by the way):

and then i went with Jonas to Stevens & Stevens. we shared a tuna melt and cherished our day off together. it is the best day of the week for me:

i also made banana bread. yes. yes. yes:

so, monday was rough but by tuesday, things were better and i felt better. it helps to have a nice, clean home, a little time to download some music, maybe the new episode of Walking Dead and working on a few projects. good for me :)