that happiness project.

i expressed my mixed feelings about 100 happy days before and i have finally decided to give it up. it actually made me less happy trying to take a photo everyday. i am okay with giving up because i really didn't want to do it anymore. i also started to ponder on what makes me happy. it is a different list than a few years ago(and in random order), and i like to remember things like this so...

1. feeling beautiful. this doesn't happen often and i aim for it but its hard for me. when it does happen, it is the best. that, and feeling thin. but i also like to eat sooo..
2. travel. obvious, right? i do love it though. i have goals to see so many different places and each one truly enriches my life. i would travel all the time if i could. ALL THE TIME.
3. europe. i need to live there. it calls to me.
4. being an adult, making my own decisions.
5. confidence/accomplishments/ having skills to support myself.
6. exercising. especially running.
7. going out to eat. i feel like this is an extension of my love for travel. i definitely feel pleasure when i try something new and delicious..or something familiar and delicious.
8. being close to my Savior.
9. beautiful photographs. photographs in general- especially of my family.
10. clothing. beautiful clothing.
11. finishing a book and the new perspective a book gives.
12. this might sound really bad but i like to be alone. my social anxiety makes me want to run away sometimes (why am i a funeral director again? the most social job ever?) being alone is much easier but its not good all the time & i know this.
13. kindness and understanding.
14. movies that make you feel something.

...and that's all i have for now.