maternity leave.

Maternity leave has been such a blur of the following things:: milk, cuddles, a crazy sleep schedule, listening to podcasts, watching tv, recording Zara's life so far with photos and journals, love and learning to navigate this new life. Each day has fallen right into the next at such speed.

For a while I was emotional and unsure about going back to work, but I found a daycare across from the funeral home (I can see it from there) and then everything was okay. Basically, I get to commute with my girl and go feed her at lunch and see her (as long as things aren't too crazy).

I am less than a week away from going back to work. I am very grateful for the time I have had off. I work for a wonderful man who has been so generous and kind through the whole thing. I also have a great community at work with lots of love and support. It is a great place to go back to!

Going back to work may be a scary thought but I feel happy. It sounds so cheesy, but keeping a good attitude and focusing on the seemingly small, obscure & beautiful parts of daily life really help. "I can do hard things"- a little mantra I will just keep repeating. Anyway, I do feel ready to get off the sidelines, have a schedule again and get this baby weight off :)