at the hospital.

I only had to spend two days in the hospital! After the five days I spent here with Zara, it made me so happy. It was exhausting and blissful. I watched a lot of HGTV and texted so many people! & you know, dealt with recovery, filled out paperwork, watched really sad videos about shaken babies (the hospital made me) and fed Eleanor all day and night.

Eleanor was actually tongue tied so feeding her was a challenge. I had blisters almost immediately and her latch was not good at all. I pumped a little just to be sure she was getting the colostrum. We had her tongue clipped the last day in the hospital and I am glad even though it did not solve issues right away.

Zara met Eleanor and it was really hard. I think we are all a little sad that we have lost our time as a family of three. It is hard to add a new family member. I have tried to make sure that Zara didn't feel left out or like she didn't matter as much now that she has a sister. I also gave her a book of photos from her birth until now and a bag full of snacks and gifts. I guess no amount of conversation or gifts can make it easy to meet a new sibling. There was aggression and frustration from Zara. It was really rough. She cares about her sister and has not tried to hurt her or anything- she has taken it out on me and Jonas. We are sure it will get better with time and a lot of love!