two.

zara is two. we are counting years now. & I am so thankful. I'm thankful she is healthy, thankful for how lucky we are.
of course, sometimes it is hard. I get worn down mentally and physically, just when z is having a tough week too. or sometimes it can just be exhausting to be around a tiny person with so many needs. sometimes I could really, really use some sleep (and so can z). but we are getting better at it all. slowly and with many thanks to some great books.
looking through photos from the past two years, I see all the time we have spent together. the meals. the time spent outside. family functions. many sweet moments at home. I have loved them all. & I crave the times to come- like taking her to places I have lived and teaching her what I have learned. reading magical books. pedicures and days spent in our own world, connecting.
the past two years have been a wonderful adventure. even the day she was born when I experienced this place where people come and go, where they are born and they die. it was pretty bizarre and amazing.
I will never be able to explain this love I have for her.
happiest 2nd birthday to zara. this little girl that I am sort of fond of ;)